What would you do im scared to death.?

Hey I am 14. I love sports. My family and friends are the most thing i love most. My cousin lives far away. I miss him so much. NO one understands. But her doesn't have a cell or a Facebook so i cant talk to him. My cousin that is really close to me just died and she was 2. i would do anything to get her back. My aunt is fighting for her life with cancer. She really close to me too. I found out today my cousin might be paralyzed from a disease i forget whats it called. She really close to. If she is i don't know what i'll do. She has 2 amazing children. A 14 and a 11 year old. What do i do i'm losing everybody close to me. That's all i do is cry. If you found out what would you do.